RememBer...

2010-06-18T13:32:00.003+08:00

In a blink of the eye, the June holiday is coming to an end in one week plus time.. :( Only managed to enjoy the last two weeks or so.. Oh well..

Some happy things, finally able to meet up with the sec school gang for my birthday celebration.. Lol.. And also, the wallet that Dear bought finally arrived on Tuesday.. Pretty pretty and i'm a happy girl! Haha..

2010-06-06T23:07:00.003+08:00

Met up with my Primary school friends last evening at PS Swensons.. Thank you Boon Kim for organizing this.. There were 11 of us i think.. Boon Kim, Joseph, Jiunn Tong, Jolene, David, Yoke Wen, Fagan, Liang Hong, Shaiful, Diyanah and bf and me.. Had a great time catching up, after 12 years for some.. :) Next meeting, September!! Hopefully there would be more people then..

Busy busy week 2 of the June Hols.. :(

2010-05-29T18:56:00.002+08:00

Welcome to the holidays!! Been looking forward to it for a very loooooong time.. Even though it's the holidays, but doubt i'll have much time slacking and enjoying it.. :(

Week 1 will be reserved for school and YPPAE, week 2 YPPAE, week 4 school and course.. After doing some Math, i'll be left with only 1 week plus of holidays instead of the 2-3 weeks.. Haiz.. Oh well..

Anyway, met up with the Secondary school clique on Thursday night.. It was great! Hours of chit chatting and chilling at the C-Nai cafe at ECP, they're really a wonderful bunch of friends, 11 years of friendship and counting.. Love them to the max.. :)

2010-05-01T20:46:00.003+08:00

Bored at home on a Saturday night..

Long weekend.. Supposedly 3 day break to enjoy and chill.. Dear have to work during the weekend, only able to meet on Monday.. Ha.. Oh well.. Lunch at Aunty Mummy's place this afternoon.. Yummy home-made popiah, 现包现吃.. Fresh crabs, delicious.. Haha!

Week 7's arriving.. Which means exams are coming.. Stress.. :x

Oh, Happy Labour Day! :)

2010-03-25T14:44:00.006+08:00

This is just something Dear wrote as his Facebook status, decided to post it up here without telling him.. Lol..

夏雨轻唤世无常

秋风掀起锥心伤

冬寒绕梁窝内暖

春柳迎新四季完

2010-03-14T10:20:00.008+08:00

...放假...假日...日子...

期待已久的三月假期终于来了，但感觉上这个假期没差。脑子里开始盘算在这个星期里能做什么，数着数着，咦，好像没几天是有空的。就这样吧...

有时我在想，不教书我能做些什么？戏剧？后台？两者都会一点点但不精。这个部分就留给冠寰去做吧，总觉得我应该会留在本行蛮长的一段时间。哈。

一时兴起，想上来写些东西，但来了又不知要写些什么，只能乱写一场。矛盾。

常常在想，其实自己很幸运，要懂得珍惜。

突然好想喝酒。不是借酒消愁，就是想喝，就是要喝。哈。

2010-02-13T05:53:00.003+08:00

Happy 3rd anniversary.. :)

Wow.. It felt forever before reaching the first year.. Now, we've just hit our third year.. More years to go.. :)

I Love You Robyn~

2010-02-05T01:07:00.003+08:00

Yes, i really need to grow up.. I really need to get to know more things, get in touch with more people, more things that are happening around me.. Being someone who has never gone through much hardships/problems/big shit, i'm really really very lucky, and i thank god for that.. I lack the experience, the ability to see things, feel things, sense things, understand things.. Yes, i am at times very stupid and bobo and insensitive in these aspects.. I often spout things out without thinking, at that spur of the moment.. I'm very sorry to each and everyone of my friends, family, due to my inconsideration/spontaneous moments, should i have hurt anyone of you.. I often regret after saying it out loud, never totally learn my lesson, even though i know i'm wrong, sometimes i just couldn't control (that's more of an excuse), it's just i never make it a point to register.. Every time when i think things through, i know what went wrong, for a few months i'll make it a point to take note.. But it just wouldn't sustain.. It shouldn't be like this Xi.. You know just how freaking well it went and it will go.. You just didn't make it a point to engrave it deep enough.. Why still bother doing things that you know will cause unhappiness, you know you're able to stop it, why did you still let it out.. Please, grow up and out..

Friends, friends, friends.. Friends come and go, friends come and stay, friends come and stayed and go, friends come and stayed and went off and still comes back.. People change, i change.. Just accept them for who they are, and bless them with all your love just as they do so to you.. No one is perfect.. I definitely am not perfect but i promise i will do my very best..

This shall be my new start, my new perspective.. I want to become a better person, i really want to..

2010-01-29T15:49:00.003+08:00

What are the chances of seeing a full circle of rainbow around a full moon?

Dear and i were walking home last night after dinner when he suddenly looked up and saw the beautiful scene. We can't help but stare, and he gestured for the phone.. Tried taking a few pictures with my purple Nokia phone.. Failed, resolution's not good enough.. Lol.. It shall be captured in both our memories.. :)

Something funny happened while we were looking at the moon.. A guy who was walking behind us, stopped to look at us, he must be thinking why is this couple taking pictures of the sky in the middle of the road (we literally stopped in the middle of the round-about).. Ha.. So he followed our gaze, and when he saw what we saw, his reaction was classic.. Difficult to explain with words so if you wanna know what was it, come find me and i'll act it out for you.. LOL..

Beautiful night.. :)

2010-01-10T02:57:00.002+08:00

After going through the trouble of changing the blogskin cuz of inactive pics, the current pic has become inactive too.. Whatever.. Shall just leave with it since i'm fine with the black and pink.. Ha..

New year, new challenges, new classes, new perspectives, new colleagues.. 2010, ICT/AV/Drama, P1&2, form teacher, afternoon session.. Loads of things to learn..

A colleague reminded me, no matter what, never ever back stab someone just to get to the top, remember about our morals.. Life, everyone at some point of their lives will encounter problems/dilemmas, but no matter how difficult it is, never make use of one another/friends just to achieve something.. I know, there's this saying that goes 人就是要互相利用的.. 我觉得适当而不会破坏友情的利用稍微可以接受。但是为了得利而踩在朋友的头上或是在背后捅他几刀是万万不可的吧！

..人生..人性..人缘..人言..

2009-12-27T17:23:00.002+08:00

Today is a happy day.. :)
I saw a full rainbow from the trees area by the seaside all the way to the flats at Bedok area.. Beautiful.. :)

The holidays are just too too too short.. School's reopening in one week's time.. I've not enjoyed it fully.. Happy days just fly by so so quickly.. :(

Jia you jia you!!

2009-11-13T07:54:00.003+08:00

It's Friday the Thirteenth..

A colleague mentioned it has been long since the last Friday 13th and he's hoping something might happen today.. Lol.. Indeed it has been long but on the contrary, i kind of like Friday 13th, don't ask me why, totally have no idea.. Haha..

Maybe it's because the 13th is a special day to me.. Happy 33rd month.. :)

2009-11-05T10:04:00.002+08:00

In school.. Feeling uneasy/weird.. I seem to be quite free.. According to some colleagues it's normal for someone new like me.. Kept going through things that i might have missed out.. Nothing.. Or not that i'm able to recall.. Hmmm.. Enjoy the moment? Not exactly.. Haha..

Holidays are coming.. Will i be able to save enough for Taiwan next year? Jia you jia you!! :)

2009-11-01T19:31:00.002+08:00

Counting down.. :)

All time favorite film.. Notting Hill.. Think i can just re-watch it a few more times, together with Speed and Face Off.. Weird combination yea.. Lol.. :p

*I'm just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her.*

2009-10-17T18:04:00.001+08:00

Feeling so so so so so proud.. Haha.. Changed the blogskin all by myself.. :)

2009-10-17T16:02:00.004+08:00

Oh my.. Didn't realize my last post was on the 19th of August.. Lol.. No updates for close to two months.. School's busy as ever and exams are coming.. PSLE marking next week, quite excited.. First experience.. Haha..

Time really really really flies.. Was in the car with Dear a few days back, driving, and it suddenly occurred to me that it's October already and i'd been teaching for close to 4 months and 2009 is coming to an end in a few months time.. Woah..

Looking at the condition of my blog, i guess it's really time to change my blogskin.. *hint hint*

2009-08-19T16:09:00.004+08:00

Another month has passed.. No major happenings in school, beginning to get into the routine of waking early, school, late afternoons, night activities.. Haha.. Me being me, will never be the normal teacher that you get.. Standard routine of school, home, school, home, on and on it goes.. Nah, that's not for me.. Lol.. Still pretty much enjoying life and at the same time killing myself.. Haha! Oh well.. :)

Felt great to be able to watch theatre productions one after another.. Spirits Play last saturday, The Creative Lab on thursday, H is for Hantu on saturday.. Awesome!! Big thank you to Zach and Beng and of course Dear for the tickets.. :D

ps: my new lover's name is called Robeng.. HAHA! *winks at azlin, who doesn't even reads the blog*

博爱 vs 独爱
Hmmm.. Comments anyone?

2009-07-09T10:12:00.002+08:00

Blogging in school..
In between lessons..
Markings to do..
Papers to vet..
Questions to set..

Seems like i'm adapting well so far.. The jitters are still around at times but not as much.. The butterflies have flown to the other flowers in the garden.. Hopefully they won't be back any time soon.. Ha.. I still welcome the hugs though.. They're really supporting and encouraging.. Hee.. =p

Future crisis.. We're going to have a discussion on friday.. Hopefully we're able to come to a conclusion or find some solution to it.. =x

I need to chill..
More drinking sessions please..
Sounding like a jiu gui.. Haha..

2009-06-28T18:52:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling so so so so freaking stress now.. Don't know how i'm able to reach the standard.. School's starting tmr le, but somehow i don't feel prepared.. Having the jitters and butterflies are fluttering all over.. I need a hug so so so badly.. Ha.. :x

I have to be strong..

2009-06-20T13:48:00.002+08:00

3 weeks has passed in a blink of the eye.. MHC for the first week, drama camp for the second, before i could enjoy the third, it's ending.. :(

Timbre with drama peeps on thursday.. It was great!!! Had so much fun.. We should organise more of such outings yea.. :) Planning for a bbq cum drinking session at my place on the 23rd with the drama peeps again.. Can't wait.. Lol..

In one week's time i'll be embarking on a new journey.. I don't know what to say.. Wish me luck.. :x

2009-05-29T22:50:00.002+08:00

:( sick..

I took an MC on the fourth and fifth day of school.. Well done Ms Lau.. Temperature went up on Wed night, took some panadol and redoxin, hoping it'll go down by Thurs morning but who knows, shot right up to 38 degrees C.. For the safety of everyone, i'd decided to take an MC.. So yea.. :(

2009-05-12T03:11:00.002+08:00

Hello people.. I'm officially done with my practicum and had received my posting.. Happy yet feeling stressed.. I wonder how my next three years there will be.. =x I'm kind of dreading the 25th as well as that marks the beginning of my teaching life.. Lol..

Still don't know what degree i'm going to pursue in in the near future.. I don't mind studying but it's just all the exams and essays that are so irritating and frustrating.. Are there any universities that provide a degree just by purely finishing the course of study? I'll be the first to enrole, the boyfriend will be the next.. Haha! =p

Life..

2009-04-03T14:13:00.002+08:00

These past 2 weeks had been very hectic and eventful for me..

My first time.. Hopefully never will i encounter such things again.. (does it sound wrong to you? oh well.. Haha..) People say one'll learn from their experience, but thank you, i wouldn't want such experiences ever again.. =x

Thank you so so so much Dear.. Thank you for being around, all your help and support.. I really don't know how i'll be able to cope without you.. Thank you once again and i love you..

2009-03-20T11:49:00.002+08:00

Time ticktock ticktock.. I need more time.. We're always racing against time..

Production has come to an end on the 7th.. Couldn't find the time to blog till now.. The show has ended but not the "aftermath".. Lots of follow-ups to do.. So many things to be done, so many problems yet there seem to be no good solutions to solve them..

Some things to ponder about.. What do you know about "Committment"? How do you see it, define it? Is it that once it's being said/agreed on you'll have to give your heart and soul eventhough you're not sure if you're able to give it off fully? If i've already given my word to be committed yet halfway through i really just couldn't cope and decides to leave, am i not committed enough? Can it be forced upon? Can it be drilled out? What is it?

Till now i'm still very excited/fascinated.. We saw a little rainbow on the underside of the MRT track while driving to Bedok sheng siong with Dear on Wednesday.. I was astonished, how is a rainbow able to appear at the wierd place, even thought it might be some graffitti but the position was way too high for anyone to climb up.. Totally made my day, i'm going to be so so so lucky/blessed.. =D

2009-02-19T13:59:00.002+08:00

Oh dear.. Today's my last lesson in NIE.. Practicum starts next week.. 10 weeks.. >.<

Assigments still has to be handed up during the March holidays, YPPAE's annual performance is in 16 days time.. Meetings regarding MHC is piling up too.. Stress..

It's time to make important decisions again.. I have to have a degree no matter what.. What to study? Where to study? When to study? Haiz..

2009-02-04T22:18:00.002+08:00

Haiz.. Bad start to a new year.. Had been having flu before cny, finally went to the doc this week.. Some viral flu/sensitivity to dust.. Headache is back knocking at my door again.. Mc for Monday and Wednesday..

Emo-ing.. Friendship, relationship.. Is it really that difficult to maintain? You may have many friends around you but who will be the ones that are going to be with you till the end? Who are the ones who are willing to walk down the road with you, be there for you and vice versa? Life is like a straight road with many side roads and pit stops along the way.. Where would you want to make a turn, stop for a rest, or continue walking.. Who would you meet, what would you say, what would happen along the way? Would there be anyone joining you? Would it be a short company or would the person be there forever? I really don't know..

Came across these words while listening to the radio.. It was said by the late 圣严法师

“当遇到任何的困难时，你必须面对它，接受它，处理它，放下它。”

So yea, when we were to encounter any problems, we just have to face it, accept it, deal with it and let it go.. Ohm~~

2009-01-28T12:44:00.004+08:00

Happy 牛Year!! =)

恭喜恭喜！祝大家牛年行大运，身体健康，万事如意！=D

2009-01-13T21:58:00.003+08:00

Finally K-ed with Pei Si and Lynn... After so long... Haha... Don't feel enough though... =p

Doctor-ed and shopped with Dear... He bought a pair of jeans, shoes, slippers and a nice pair of glasses and i bought a skirt... =) Been doing a lot of online shopping these few days... Oh no... =x

Can't wait... So excited... Lol...

2009-01-01T09:04:00.002+08:00

Happy 2009! =)

Random randomness... Spent both Christmas and New Year's eve with my YPPAE darlings... =) Rehearsal, Settler's, stay-over for Christmas eve and meeting, slacking, webbing, Game of Life on New Year's eve... Wonderful... Haha...

Was just thinking back about how i spent these two events for the past 3 years... Something different every year...

Christmas'06 - Brunch with cousins and family, airport slacking with Dear, Suntec meet up with Wanrong...

New Year's eve'06 - Props packing at YPPAE, countdown session at the Esplanade, getting high outside VT, trying to get home frenzy, saved by a friend at 3 plus am... =D

New Year's day'07 - Small drinking session at friend's place... =p

Christmas'07 - Ex-neighbours gathering at my place, dinner at the airport with Dear, watched Alvin and the Chipmunks... =D

New Year's eve'07 - Staying over at my place with Jinxuan, Xiaojun and Liying darlings, countdown with champagne and ships, saving Beng operation, Twister-ed; had fun... =D

New Year's day'08 - Celebration at my place with uncle, aunty, cousins and Dear, Dear fell sick; vomited through the night... =(

Christmas eve'08 - Rehearsal, meeting, dinner, great night at the Settler's Cafe with Jin, Fauzy, Khor, Jun, Dan, Yingjie, Ben and Dear, stay-over... =D

New Year's eve'08 - Meeting, slacking, webbing, cracking at Jinxuan's, chilli crabs, Game of Life, countdown in the car with Jin, Fauzy and Dan, missing Dear... =D

New Year's day'09 - Missing Dear...

Interesting... May not be as happening but i'm contented with what i have... Love you all... =)

2008-12-26T19:11:00.002+08:00

I know it's a little too late but Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!! =)

I'm not making any new year resolutions but just wanna let all my darlings know that i love you and that i really treasure our friendship... *hugz* Eventhough i don't meet up with some of you often, you'll always be in my heart and mind... Hee... =p

I love my family and Dear so so much too... Lol...

*...in the mood for love huh...haha...*

2008-12-07T23:19:00.002+08:00

6 days of drama camp finally ended... was so drained that i didn't even make it for Julia's birthday celebration on Saturday... Sorry darling, will treat you to one when you're back yea... =) Rehearsal almost every single day from 0930 to 1800, Sunday will be from 1430 to 2200... Tired...

Due to school stuff i won't be able to take part as cast but i was assigned the job of the director's assistant as well as the "super-understudy" in a way, as long as anyone's not there, i'll fill the space... Haha...

I miss taking part in a production... Only helped out in Short and Sweet Mandarin in June and basically that's it for the year so far... So hopefully the coming one will be a fun and enriching one... =)

~i miss you~

2008-11-21T21:33:00.004+08:00

Hmmm... Memories were flooding back after reading this particular blog... It just felt wierd to read that phrase again after close to two years... Oh well... Haiz...

This is actually a Hokkien Song by 郑进一，a veteran Taiwan host/singer... A very meaningful song...

有一日咱若老找無人甲咱友孝我歲郁A
坐惦椅寮聽你講少年的時陣你有外
吃好吃丑無計較怨天怨地嘛袂曉你的手
我極狶A牽條條因為我是你的家後
阮將青春嫁置恁兜阮對少年跟你跟甲老
人情世事已經看透透有啥人比你卡重要
阮的一生獻乎恁兜才知幸福是吵吵鬧鬧
等待返去的時陣若到我溫?A先走
因為我瑕F甘放你為我目屎流
有一日咱若老有媳婦子兒友孝你若無聊
拿咱的相片看卡早結婚的時陣你外緣投
穿好穿丑無計較怪東怪西嘛袂曉
你的心我極羶楣O條條因為我是你的家後
阮將青春嫁置恁兜阮對少年就跟你跟甲老
人情世事嘛已經看透透有啥人比你卡重要
阮的一生獻乎恁兜才知幸福是吵吵鬧鬧
等待返去的時陣若到你著讓我先走
因為我瑕F甘看你為我目屎流

It's a song wriiten from the wife's point of view... About her sacrifices, believes, hopes, love for her husband... The last line is especially touching... She prays that her husband would go before her as she can't bear to see him cry and go through the pains of losing a loved one...

...i love you so much...

2008-11-14T22:24:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Dear!! =)

Had a great day with him... Simple yet sweet and lovely... =) Totally love every moment spent, hope you do too... Love you...

...Our future car's number plate: SRL 5217 F... Hee...

2008-11-07T21:35:00.002+08:00

Just came back from a small little November babies celebration at Top One ktv... Cher Hao, Alvin and Dear, the 3 totally different-in-character Scorpio guys in the group... Haha... 6 of us, Mad went off early due to work, Alvin and Julia were practically KO-ing due to lack of sleep... The mainly high and crazy ones were Cher Hao, Dear and i... Lol... Pan Duo La never fails to make our day... =p Stupid Zhu Jia came to join us for dinner after that... Should go lalala more often... Ha...

In a blink of an eye, Dear's exams are over and mine's coming in less than one weeks time! Better start mugging more and hopefully burn and drink my notes.... =x

2008-11-01T18:34:00.002+08:00

...emotions.overwhelming....

...stress.overwhelming...

...tears.overwhelming...

.period.

2008-10-28T11:07:00.003+08:00

Oh my goodness... Here i am at SIM waiting for dear to finish his 3 hours Com Law paper at 1315... Was thinking that i could spend the time mainly by playing games but the network has denied my access to Games... Argh... =( Sianz... Two more hours to go... Shall study ba... Haha...

Everyone's so stressed over everything... Exams, work, life... Can we just slow down so there'll be time to stop and appreciate things?

2008-10-21T18:22:00.002+08:00

Woah!! The surprise bbq for Beng on Sunday was great, eventhough there was a slight possibility that we have to call it off... The birthday boy was not feeling too good and wanted to stay at home and the rest of us were feeling so panicky cuz everything were prepared and ready for his arrival... So us, being very theatrically (is there such word?) trained, came up with an unscrupulous plot to make him come over to my place... Lol... We had audio cues to ensure that everyone will appear at the right time to surprise him... Hahaha...

A big thank you to everyone, without you the party would not be a success... And of course, a big big hug to Tiffany, the master mind of this whole event, all the hard work she had put in... Eventhough he won't be seeing this but, Beng, must cherish her yea!! Haha...

Enough of fun, exams are coming in less than one month's time... =(

2008-10-16T21:43:00.002+08:00

Pissed... After going to the main Starhub from Tampines to Plaza Sing to the small Starhub in Parkway Parade i'm still unable to get my desired Nokia 6600 fold phone... =( And when i finally saw it at Parkway's Nokia shop, i realised that there wouldn't be enough capital for me to buy it this month... Sad... My current phone is really going crazy, had been using it for 3 years already... Ha...

Can i just strike 4D someday or maybe someday my bank account will suddenly have lots of money... Hahahaha... *slaps*

2008-10-14T18:22:00.003+08:00

Hello to those out there who reads my not so interesting blog... Haha... As usual, still busy with school and drama... Exams are coming... Stress... =p

Recently, the whole family as well as Dear are hooked to this Hong Kong drama, "溏心风暴之家好月圆" it's the usual family affairs series but it's somehow so addictive... Lol... Having a surprise birthday party this sunday, the theme will be Hawaiian/Beach Party, whereby girls will come in flora wear and the guys will have to be in a Hawaiian shirt... Haha!! Sounds fun! =)

There's still exactly one more month to Dear's birthday but i have already got his prezzie and kept at some secret location... Hee... Was contemplating if i wanna give it to him earlier but decided against it... Shall 忍... Haha... Can't wait for the day to come... So so so excited... =D

2008-09-27T10:19:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling so detached during this one week break... School seems to be over and i'm just enjoying the holiday... Haha... There are still tests, assignments, presentations to go... *wake up yx!*

Life's still the same, so darling jun, it's not that i don't wanna update, there's nothing new for me to update about... Lol! =p

Till then, tata! =)

2008-09-16T17:00:00.003+08:00

Had a busy busy busy weekend... Three shows in two days, Friday and Saturday... Reviews from the teachers were not too bad... At least i felt that the last show was the best cuz the feel was he strongest on that day with the audience response and stuff... =) Felt a little pressurized and wanted to do my best cuz the parents were there plus that's the first time Dear's watching me perform... Cannot dui lian... Hee... Was overall satisfied with the last show... =)

Shiyun's wedding on Sunday... Stress... Everything seemed so planned yet unplanned but John managed to get to his beloved bride and things went on quite smoothly... Wedding dinner on Monday, helped out with the Mandarin emcee... Sound system really bad, couldn't really hear us at the beginning but oh wells, everyone is familiarise with wedding dinners and know what to do at what time... Lol... Have a blissful marriage my darling Shiyun and John... =)

Time is really going so so so so fast nowadays... Can't seem to have enough time to complete things and before you know it, a new day has come... How i wish i could control time... =(

2008-09-06T14:11:00.002+08:00

Omg omg omg... This is going to be a super busy week... Bump in on Monday, one day to do our full run and whatsoever before the actual performance on Friday and Saturday... Don't really feel prepared though... It's like something's not there yet... =x Presentations coming up this week and the following weeks as well... And not to forget, our dear ShiYun's wedding on Sunday and dinner on Monday... So many things so little time...

Please grant me with the strength to be diligent, focused enough to complete all given tasks...

2008-08-30T17:48:00.002+08:00

It just feels so great to lie in bed, and when you look out of the window, what welcomes you is a night sky that is littered with twinkling stars... =)

Ying Xi is still in a holiday mood... Bad...

2008-08-13T22:45:00.002+08:00

I don't know why, but i'd been looking forward to this date... One and a half years and counting... =)

I wanna grow old with you, I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you, I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you, sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

*Westlife I Wanna Grow Old With You*

2008-08-11T14:32:00.002+08:00

Ying Xi dreads going to school... Only the first week and assignments and presentations are piling up... =(

Got myself involved in yppae's upcoming crosstalk performance in September... Two sets of scripts to memorise... I believe my ability to memorise scripts in a short period of time has long gone away... Stress... Just had the first practice with the two crosstalk masters yesterday... More stress... I can foresee more busy days coming up... =x

2008-07-30T16:34:00.000+08:00

Finally ended the 5 weeks TA... It was quite a fulfilling experience... Nice CTs, cool trainees... Will never forget the time spent crapping and laughing in the library... Haha... Having a one week break before school starts officially next week...

Happily spending my saturday blading at ECP... It was scary!! Can you imagine blading after not touching it for more than a decade... Lol... The slopes are real killers... But sure am going to do it again... Good exercise... Haha... Finally had the chance to cut my hair on monday... Feels so much neater... Hee... Shopping with Dear on Tuesday... Happy!! =D Bought pink tops each for Shiyun's bachelorette party... Cycling today at ECP with Lynn!! Butt pain but shall do it more often... Haha... I'm feeling healthy! LOL... I wanna go swimming but will have to wait at least two weeks due to my hair... Oh well...

Realised that i've been spending quite alot lately...The money just come and go all at once... Hmmm... Not good...

ps: when are we going for our blading session Dear? =p

2008-07-15T17:55:00.003+08:00

多多鼓励，少点批评

多多信任，少点担心

多多等待，少点催促

多多拥抱，少点唠叨

- 取自青少儿广播演艺组2002年《好孩子难当》主题曲

这首歌本来是想告诉家长要给孩子们多一点爱的空间，让他们能更健康成长。但是我觉得它的道理不只能用在亲子之间，对朋友、情侣、夫妻甚至师生都有很大的帮助。彼此互相扶持，多一点鼓励，少一点批评。不要开口闭口就是一些不中听的话。多了信任担心也自然会减少。但说得容易做得难，当你要给予完全的信任就必须把所有的猜疑抹掉，真真正正地去相信，放手让他去。多等待，耐心一点，说不定再等一会儿会有不一样的结果呢。我觉得拥抱能解决很多东西，但我不是鼓励你们到处乱抱！哈！当一个人伤心的时候、生气的时候、需要人关怀的时候，在适当的时候给予一个拥抱，它可以是鼓励的拥抱、亲密的拥抱、思念的拥抱、高兴的拥抱...... 只要一个拥抱就够了......

不知道为什么我就是很喜欢这首歌。觉得它的词十分有意思... =) 昨晚躺在床上看着没有星星的天空想了不少可以写的东西，谁知一到了学校就什么也不记得了... 只想要分享这首歌...

2008-07-07T22:55:00.002+08:00

A very nuah and feeling "attached to him" mood... Haha... Didn't wanna stay at home thus insisted on picking Dear up after school... Feeling very manja to him today... Haha... Drove to the national library, lunch at Hans... The food standard really dropped... But anyway, felt very good cuz we talked about many things and exchanged views... Enlightened... =) Love the serious look he has when sharing his thoughts... *shy* =p

I received my birthday prezzie from Dear yesterday, Vivienne Westwood wallet... =D He loves it so much that he wanna exchange wallets... Haha... Big thank you to Tiffany for buying it and bringing it back all the way from Japan... She was so stressed over me not liking it but i love it!! Big hugs to her... =)

2008-06-30T15:59:00.002+08:00

Greetings from the school's holding room for the trainee teachers... =) One week has passed, four more to go... Stress level rising... Haha... Eventhough i had done teaching before, it just feel totally different now... We're going to be assessed by both the school's cooperating teacher and NIE's supervisor... It just feel wierd being watched... I'll just feel very uncomfortable... Haha... Oh well... Lesson observations, reflections, lesson plans, markings, corrections... Never ending... Lol... Despite all these, teaching can be fun and interesting...

Suddenly have the urge to do improvisations... Missed those days where we had the conflict circle activity back in TC... Was discussing with Val that maybe i should hold one session at my place some day... Haha!! I miss her... I miss acting... I miss the process of character developing... =(

2008-06-25T22:18:00.005+08:00

3 days into my Teaching Assistantship... The teachers in the school seems friendly and approachable... =) There are 6 trainees altogether and only two of us are posted to the afternoon session... Pros and cons... At least i don't have to wake up so early in the morning but i'll only be able to leave school around 1845 everyday... Oh wells... Haha... Feeling quite worried regarding me teaching during the last three weeks... Don't know if i'll be able to handle the students well... Somehow it's different to my previous school... But luckily both my NSC and CT are nice people... =) Wish me luck... =x

...love...hate...more...less...

sane...insane...happy...sad...

2008-06-19T03:28:00.002+08:00

I'm alive!!! =)

The holidays are coming to an end... Starting with my Teaching Assistantship on Monday and it's going to last for 5 weeks... Stress... Haha... Hope all things will go well, nice students, teachers, parents... =x

Bust busy busy with productions again... Short & Sweet Mandarin this week, Thursday to Sunday... Can't wait for A Jet of Blood this coming September... Strong and interesting casts... =)

Got to know some fun and bubbly friends lately... Happy... =D

2008-05-28T23:25:00.002+08:00

Ying Xi is living a monotonous life now... She's either out for rehearsals, drama lessons (which ended last sunday), or staying at home watching television programs or reading... She apologises for not being able to update her blog for such a long time as her lap top is down... Nothing much happened lately either... So oh well...

2008-05-06T02:21:00.002+08:00

Went to the gym and sauna this morning with my new found kahkee from NIE, Lynn... =) And hopefully we're going to continue doing it during the holiday... Keep fit, stay healthy... Haha...

Today's just not my day... Picked Dear and Beng to have lunch at Bugis area... Banged into a lamp-post while reversing the car... Second time already...Got distracted by Dear the first time and now it was Beng's turn... Got teased about it... I love banging the back... Oh well... Ha...

I realise i need more money... =(

2008-04-27T00:17:00.002+08:00

Izzy's back in the beloved arms of his daddy Beng!! =)

It was really like a roller coaster ride... The posters were a great help... Kudos to Julia for designing it... Went with Beng and Dear to put up the posters along Oxley and River Valley road and the condo area where Izzy frequented on Tuesday... And on Wednesday morning, i received a call from a resident saying he saw a Izzy look-alike at the swimming pool area...
On the same night, the security guard called saying Izzy is at the carpark area and luckily Dear and i were at Oxley waiting for Beng so we rushed down but only managed to see Izzy running away and into hiding... Poor Dear had to climb up to the pipes area and got himself covered in dust... Beng came, we decided to bring some food over, hoping Izzy will appear again... The security guard was a nice Malay man... Not only did he bring us around to where Izzy might be but also agreed to keep the food secretly to help 'lure' Izzy out... =) We waited for a few more days but still didn't manage to bring him back... Finally, last night i received Beng's message saying Izzy's back... Beng went over to try his luck again... This time, Izzy appeared and Beng managed to bring him back, single-handedly... That's the difference between the Daddy and the friends... Haha...

Welcome home Izzy... =)

I'm done with school!!!!!!! Lol...

2008-04-22T00:08:00.013+08:00

Something really bad happened just last stormy Saturday about 1 am... He went off and didn't come back... Leaving his owner in desperation, frantically looking all over for him... Prayers and help from friends... He still hasn't return home... The news came hard... Like what Daiyan said, there're only memories
and pictures left... I believe in
miracles... I still do...
I too believe that our prayers
would be heard and he will be
guided back to his owner and friends
who love him dearly...
*prays hard*

Oh yea, I'm posted to an elite school around my area for my Teaching Assistantship in June... Stress... Haha...

2008-04-17T08:55:00.003+08:00

First paper for the semester in like 4 hours... What am i doing here? Haha... Last paper in another 172 hours... Haha... Can't wait for all these to end... I'm supposed to know which school i'm posted to for my Teaching Assistantship somewhere in June... Don't want to know... =(

Aunt will be back for good from Friday... No car already... I'm too pampered by it's existence... Back to cabbing days i guess... Hee...

I want to cut my hair... It's getting long and unbearable in this weather... Haha...

...我认了...

2008-04-10T18:20:00.002+08:00

I can't believe it... My pair of havaianas slippers had gone missing from my 29th floor home... I was still wearing them when i sent dear back last night and this afternoon it was gone! =x How could this happen?

Met up with Julia, Cher Hao, Shi Yun, Zhu Jia together with dear on Tuesday... Had dinner at Central's Waraku and went down to Settlers Cafe for a few games... It was so fun!! We started with a game called Chameleons whereby we have to collect cards of the same coloured chameleons... Then it was some balancing game which was quite dangerous... Haha... Last game was some crapping game... It was so funny cuz everyone had to come up with things to write about the given topic and we sort of had to bluff each other... Difficult to explain... Lol... I became the chauffeur again despite CH having his license not long ago... Haha... So one by one, starting from Zhu... We left the place around 11pm and by the time dear and i reached home, it was already close to 1am.... Ha! Cooked lunch yesterday but too bad, not really up to standard... Shall cook something else if there's a next time okie... Hee...=p Totally enjoyed the time spent love...=)

2008-03-30T22:53:00.004+08:00

...Phew... =)

Took my first MC for the semester last Thursday... Never had i felt such pain before... Dear came over with lunch in the afternoon to accompany me to the doctor's... Love you!

I think it's all due to the assignments and presentations... Unseen stress building up inside me... The semester is coming to an end already... Oh my goodness, it sure is fast... Due dates for everything are approaching soon too... Haiz... Stress stress stress stress... =(

First time being the audience for my drama's performance... The feeling was not too bad... Haha... The overall performance was good but still, jiang hai shi lao de la, meaning the older are still the better... Not that the younger ones are bad, in fact they were great... Just that it feels better and i enjoyed the older members' more... More feel... Lol... While watching, suddenly realized that i've grown older... Haha... I was once the leader to some of the younger performer, they were only 6, 7 years old then... But now they're already like 11,12,14 years old already and standing so comfortably on stage... How time flies... Oh well... Ha...

Just got news, sis bought tickets for parents to join her in Vietnam from the 7th to 13th April... She'll be there with company from the 5th, then extending the trip... Love it! *wink*

2008-03-23T08:03:00.003+08:00

I'm tired of waiting... It's making me feel so uneasy and stressed up... =(

I'm sick of assignments... It's eating up most of my time...

But i'm glad you are always there and i'm happy i have my friends...

2008-03-17T01:05:00.007+08:00

女人啊女人，你为何那么难理解呢？

Sometimes i just don't understand, why would we wanna make things so difficult for ourselves... Either by thinking too much or not thinking at all... Causing all unwanted worries and jitters for ourselves... Jealousy is a serial killer... I'm fine with things... But sometimes when this serial killer goes out to hunt i'll be in some stupid dilemma... It's like if you continue to know about something you know you won't feel good, but there's still this curiosity towards it... The more you know about it, the more you'll start to get jealous... The feeling is always the strongest during certain days... Haha... Oh well... Does it apply to all ladies or isit just me? Lol...

2008-03-15T21:11:00.003+08:00

Here i am, blogging at Waterloo Coffeebean, our most frequented studying place... =) Can't think of much to write, batt running flat soon... Haha... Handed in a few assignments but more coming up... Argh... Never-ending... =(

Everyone is so busy with school and work meet-ups are getting lesser and lesser... I miss my darling friends... Julia, Shiyun, Cherhao, Alvin, Zhujia... When can all of us meet up again? I miss spending time with dear... Not like we don't meet often, just that we're always studying or doing work when we meet... I enjoy his company but it's a different kind of feel though... Haha... Difficult to explain... =p After this semester ba, when all assignments and exams are over...

2008-03-04T07:30:00.003+08:00

It's like 0730 now... Just done with my curriculum editing assignment half an hour ago... Lol... I can be very productive if i were to sit in front of the lappie for 3 to 4 hours straight and just concentrate on my work... But why do i have to only be like this on the day i'm supposed to submit my assignment? Haha... Procrastination issue again... Haiz...

Peisi and dear came over for an impromptu 3 person mj session yesterday after school... It was so funny... Better to be superstitious then never and for the first time out of the mj sessions we had, dear emerged the winner!! Lol... Dinnered at the Hong Kong Cafe at ECP... Before we left the place, my cay key dropped into the space in between the seat and the glass panel and the staff had to go through so much trouble just to help me get it out... It was so embarrassing but oh well... Haha...

My darling sister is going overseas for a two weeks holiday tonight... So jealous, i want a holiday too... =)

Waking dear in 5 minutes time... Hee...

I seriously don't understand why my tagboard will always get spammed... Ha...

2008-02-20T10:56:00.002+08:00

Had been weeks since my last post... Why do i still feel so busy when my drama lessons had been reduced to only 3 hours a week?

School... 6 modules, of which 5 are in Chinese... Curriculum design, Teaching Methodology, Modern Literature, etc... Loads of assignments piling up again... Just submitted two on Mon and Tue... Supposedly a recess week next week, but i think it's more of a 'stay at home and complete assignments' week... The big days: 03/03, 04/03, 13/03, 14/03... Why do they like to put the deadlines in consecutive days? =(

I'm slowly drifting away from drama activities but doesn't seem to feel anything except that i'm spending lesser time with my drama darlings... It's really time to move on... Every year members come and go and now, after 14 years, it's finally my turn...Are you guys going to scream at me for making this decision? For dumping whatever shit there are to you all? I'm not trying to be mean here but seriously, everyone of us are moving to different stages of life, how long more can we continue to slog there for her? Things are going to get busy when school starts, if she continues to only depend on us, i really don't know what will happen...

*I love you for who you are, do you? *

2008-01-25T20:57:00.000+08:00

Wow... Was re-reading my past entries... I started my first blog entry on 280104... This blog has been with me for close to 4 years... It is here where i've blogged about my bo-liaoness, boboness, worries, happiness, excitements, sadness, depressions, boredoms... This online diary of mine... I used to have a book for daily records during my three years of poly life... Wrote more of my inner thoughts and secrets inside too... Ha, but threw all 4 of them away when i shifted last year... Some memories are meant to be kept in the heart and some are meant to be forgotten...

Feeling quite emo now... Haha... Memories of the past 4 years are all coming back to me... New friends met, rehearsals attended, times spent, things that happened, friendship broken, social butterflied, someone came, pulled me through, brought me down, friends that stayed, view of life/relationships/things changed, life carried on, chance to perform for tc granted, friendship patched, graduated, ambition followed, finally backstaged, love found...

And ending with my own quote, Life is like a roller-coaster ride, up and down, you just have to hold on...

2008-01-12T16:33:00.000+08:00

Updates updates... =)

Met up with Shiyun, Alvin, Julia amd Cherhao on tuesday for dinner at Fish&Co. but it was a chatting cum gym cum jogging at ECP session with Julia in the afternoon... Haha... Fetched sy home after dinner due to work the next day but the others came over for a drinking cum stayover session... Lol... Ch went home to bring his Jack Daniels, Vodka, Barcardi etc and headed for my place... We started with a French movie called "Priceless" it was quite nice and we continued with playing daidee then guessing big or small with the alcohol as punishment... Think ch drank the most followed by either alvin, julia or me... Lol... Woke up the next afternoon, had lunch and continued movie watching... A Korean movie "Seducing Mr Perfect" and "Casino Royale"... Finally sent them back around 1800... Haha... We had fun... Saw each other sober but giddy and trying to walk in a straight line... Lol...

School started, 4 days week still, lucky me... Modules this semester are scary... Gotta buck up... =x

2008-01-03T11:45:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year everyone!!

The last few days of 2007 were eventful and memorable...

281207-301207: Batam Trip with Dear, Julia, Cher Hao, Beng and Maxine... Thank you Cher Hao for making this short getaway came true... =) Photos can be taken from Julia's blog... Lol...

311207-010108: Xiao Jun, Jin Xuan, Li Ying came over for a mini countdown stayover...

010108: New year call from Beng, accidentally left hazard lights on, car battery died.... Haha... Drank some wine so mum didn't really approve of me driving out... But darling sister saved the day, she actually volunteered to drive us to Substation to save Beng... Lol... Thank you so much! So all 5 ladies went for a ride at 0100 in the morning... My first prezzie for the new year... =p

010108-020108: Played Twister and the game of Life with the girls till 0530 and woke around 0830 on New Year's day... Took a stroll out to Bedok Jetty which we saw lots of people fishing and cycling... LiYing's parents came to pick her up after that and the rest nuahed while i helped mum and sis with the preparation till around 1300... Drove Jinxuan and bf out and Xiaojun home and picked up Dear and finally back home again... Lot's of people were there already... Aunt and Uncle, cousins and nieces and nephews from both sides... Sis friends came after everyone left... Played some mahjong with them... Something terrible happened after that... =( Dear started feeling nausea sometime after midnight... Tried puking but nothing came out... He was feeling so uncomfortable and horrible... Stayed over and was vomiting almost the whole night... Was feeling so helpless watching him bending over the sink and trembling, there was nothing much that i could do except to pass him the tissue, look for medicine, patting his back... It was a long night... Took him to the doctor's the next morning... Indigestion due to his gastric problem... Slept for the whole day... Luckily was feeling better at the end of the day only with his gastric still throbbing a little... Drove him back around 2200... I felt so bad... I'm sorry Dear, the party turned out to be a nightmare for you... =(

Well... These somehow summarizes what had happened during the week of 2007 into 2008... Hope that 2008 will be a great year for all of us, despite the few hiccups we had on the very first day of the year... =x

2007-12-30T20:40:00.000+08:00

Harlow people, i'm back... Haha... The getaway was great!!! Totally enjoyed the 3 days, short but kinda memorable... Haha... My virgin trip out with friends (not counting the sec 4 malaysia trip)... Lol... Can't wait for Cher Hao to upload the pictures... =)

School's starting in another 1 weeks' time, sianz... More chinese modules compared to last sem... Timetable will only be out on friday... Hope it's not too bad for this sem as well... *keeping fingers crossed*

2007-12-23T15:23:00.000+08:00

2 more days to Christmas... Haha... Celebration at cousin's place tomorrow, too bad dear can't make it cuz he'll be going over for another celebration... Ha... Will be meeting him on Christmas day... Time really flies... Was never that excited over Christmas but this year's an exception... Haha...

5 more days to Batam trip!! Yeah!!! =)

2007-12-11T23:04:00.000+08:00

Wahahaha... Ended Julia's 21st birthday dinner cum chilling last sat... It was fun... Dinner at The Hill, a bistro at Mt Faber... Food was okie, scene was alright too, but company was great!! =) Chilling session at Siglap area then was home sweet home for alvin, hanping, twins and shiyun... Thanks alvin for driving them... Then, julia, cher hao and dear came over for mahjong session... Haha... After 10 plus round we all surrendered, it was already like 4 plus... As ch and ju had to go church the next day we decided to get some sleep and get up early for breakfast with the money i had won... But who knows, by the time we got up it was already 9 plus... Haha... So sorry that you guys had to skip church... =x We ended up watching tv for the whole day and finally left around 6... Haha... But we had fun... =)

I'm so excited over the short getaway at the end of this month... =D

2007-12-02T15:24:00.000+08:00

Finally completed the camp project... Yeah!!! =) But heard that we'll be involved in planning the upcoming one next June... **%#@**

Down with bad cold and flu... Nose is ever so blocked... Pay not received yet... It feels so weird to not have enough money to spent... Having to think so much before forking the money out... 10 more days to pay day... It just seems so long...

I still want my holiday, my escape from everything here, my rest... I'm just so so so tired...

2007-11-26T21:42:00.000+08:00

Camp 1 finally ended... It was a much relaxed and easier to control camp in compare with this 3 days'... Much less people but more of us teachers.... But for Camp 2 it's practically like 2 : 14-16... Can't wait for Wednesday to come... Last day... Realised i'm falling sick... Sore throat + sneezing + blocked nose = falling sick... =(

I'm going to cut my hair again on Thursday with dear... Haha...
I want my holiday.... But guess it'll only start after the 10th...
I want to buy clothes, shoes...
I want my pay...
I WANT TO REST!!!

2007-11-22T22:02:00.000+08:00

Argh... Has never felt so drained before... Events after events... It all started with helping out at backstage for the past week plus, preparing for exams in between, diving straight into holiday camp preparation right after the last paper, Camp 1 and 2 all the way from today till the 28th... School's GESL project meetings are next on the line too... GESL event will be on the 10th of Dec, Julia's bdae celebration either on the 7th or 8th...

Out of all these different things the only thing that i had, would enjoy will be the backstage helping and bdae celebration... When can i have my holiday? From the 11th of Dec, hopefully? I wanna go for a holiday... If not i just wanna enjoy my break... Haiz...

...Breakaway...

2007-11-19T09:45:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a total down down down day for me... Totally mood swing and emoing all the way... Getting irritated at every single thing... Couldn't help myself but the energy that i was giving out was really horrible... Ha... I just needed to let out, so i found one corner and cried... Haha... Surprisingly it was so much better after that and also plus all the whinings to him... Hee... Very sorry for my behavior yesterday... =x Didn't get to have my chocolate so dear bought it for me last night after supper at lau pa sat... Haha... =)

Last show tonight, last paper tomorrow, preparation for Magical Holiday Camp, Day 1 on 22nd... Never ending events to be done... Tired...

2007-11-14T00:11:00.000+08:00

~*Happy Birthday Dear!! =)*~

Poor boy, just done with his exams and now busy with production, running here and there and doing things that are not within his job scope... But no worries, as i have a productive and smart darling... Haha... Also, having to go for rehearsal even on his bdae... Actually thought could go for some celebration but it's okie... Going to give him part one of his prezzie tmr and part two some time later ba... Hee... Hope he'll like it... =x

My exams are coming soon too... 15th and 20th... And i'm still getting myself involved with drama stuff too... Stretching myself to the limit again... Oh well...

2007-11-05T12:58:00.000+08:00

Saw this from Julia's blog, sounds quite true about her so decided to try it too... And oh my goodness, it sure is freaking true... People who knows me well, agree? Haha...

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

And yea, just came back from Cher Hao's bdae chalet... Loads of people were there but in the end there were only bdae boy, Julia, Mad, Alvin and me left in the big Aloha Changi chalet... Haha... Had fun playing mahjong and taking turns to sleep and squeezing in one queen size bed when there are like 3 other rooms and 6 other beds... Lol!!

2007-11-02T00:00:00.001+08:00

My mum kept telling me that i have to go to omy.com to search for the following... It's a letter written by a father to his child...

《当我老了》---- 写给孩子的一封信

当我老了，不再是原来的我。
请理解我，对我有一点耐心。

当我把菜汤洒到自己的衣服上时，
当我忘记怎样系鞋带时，
请想一想当初我是如何手把手地教你。

当我一遍又一遍地重复你早已听腻的话语，
请耐心地听我说，不要打断我。
你从小的时候，我不得不重复那个讲过千百遍的故事，
直到你进入梦乡。

当我需要你帮我洗澡时，请不要责备我。
还记得小时候我千方百计哄你洗澡的情形吗？

当我对新科技和新事物不知所措时，请不要嘲笑我。
想一想当初我怎样耐心地回答你的每一个“为什么”。

当我由于双脚疲劳而无法行走时，
请伸出你年轻有力的手搀扶我。
就像你小时候学习走路时，我扶你那样。

当我忽然忘记我们谈话的主题，请给我一些时间让我回想。
其实对我来说，谈论什么并不重要，
只要你能在一旁听我说，我就很满足。

当你看着老去的我，请不要悲伤。
理解我，支持我，就像你刚开始
学习如何生活时我对你那样。

当初我引导你走上人生的路，
如今请陪我走完最后的路。
给我你的爱和耐心，我会报以感激的微笑。
这微笑中凝结着我对你无限的爱。

文章择选自墨西哥《数字家庭》 2004年11月号

It's a totally sweet and heart wrenching letter... Really brought tears to my eyes... It was first read through the radio and many people were touched by the content... This explains why my mum insisted in me finding it out... Haha...

2007-10-30T02:05:00.000+08:00

Love the way when you talk, the expression that you have when in thoughts, the look in your eyes when you're trying to convey your message... Even though sometimes it really pisses me off when you throw sarcasms at me while driving... Haha... *loves*

I've always believed that people come and go... They intersect your path and some walk along with you for a period of time before moving on to another route while some may continue to walk with you till the end... Cherish whoever are with you now as you'll never know when they'll be carrying on their life somewhere else...

1. 遇到你真的爱的人时，要努力争取和他相处下去，因为当他离开时，一切都来不及了...
2. 遇到可相信的朋友时，要好好和他相处，因为在人的一生中，能遇到的知己不多。
3. 遇到人生中的贵人时，要记得好好感激，因为他是你人生的转捩点。
4. 遇到曾经爱过的人时，要记得微笑向他感激，因为他是让你更懂爱的人。
5. 遇到曾经恨过的人时，要微笑向他打招呼，因为他让你更加坚强。
6. 遇到曾经背叛你的人时，要跟他好好聊一聊，因为若不是他今天你不会懂这世界。
7. 遇到曾经偷偷喜欢的人时，要祝他幸福唷！因为你喜欢他时，不是希望他幸福快乐吗？
8. 遇到匆匆离开你人生的人时，要谢谢他走过你的人生，因为他是你精彩回忆的一部分。
9. 遇到曾经和你有误会的人时，要趁现在解清误会，因为你可能只有这一次机会解释清楚。
10. 遇到现在和相伴一生的人时，要百分百感谢他爱你，因为你们现在都得到幸福和真爱。

*我知道有时在处理事情时还像个小孩，尤其是之前的一些事也让你心烦不少。但，谢谢你对我的容忍与体贴，爱护与包容。只要有你在，我相信我会是幸福的。*

~前扑，后仰，左靠，右躺~ =)

2007-10-22T20:53:00.000+08:00

Studied at Waterloo Coffeebean with dear for the past week.... Very broke already.. Haha... Decided to go to a cheaper place, my home... Lol... But as you can see, more temptations at home... Here i am, blogging and watching tv and him infront of me with his notes and lappie and facing the tv as well... Haha... Oh yea, didn't know MasterMind can be so fun... Haha... I should really follow my instincts... =)

2007-10-14T22:54:00.000+08:00

Did something major on friday... Something that i will not do by myself... What is that? It's a secret... Haha... Ask me if you really wanna know... =p

2007-10-12T11:03:00.000+08:00

Received the outcome of my appeal last night... Appeal denied... =(
Got charged for $150, 6 demerit points BUT i'm offered the opportunity to have the offense compounded for $150... Like huh... Means i pay the fine but no deduction? Haha...

Argh....

2007-10-10T15:24:00.000+08:00

One year!! I've got my driving license for one year already!! Wow... Haha... But too bad, due to the stupid ticket i had on Aug 27th, it'll take another year for me to get the 24 full points... Oh well... Haha...

Busy busy busy... Stress stress stress... Things to be due are pilling up...
1. 50% Presentation on 161007
2. 70% Pair Assignment on 241007
3. CME Individual Assignment on 311007
4. Edu Psy Individual Assignment on 091107
5. 50% Chinese Grammar Exam on 151107
6. 50% Chinese Exam on 201107

Haiz...

2007-09-30T22:12:00.000+08:00

马善被人骑，人善被人欺... 人不为己，天诛地灭...

看来我再也不能保持着“人人为我，我为人人”的心态了... 虽然我不是每一次都很赞同你所说的东西，但是有时你说得真是很对...

我在好几年前曾说过类似的话，每当你对一个人好的时候，你是不是该停下脚步，想一想，我将要做的，值得吗？你能无条件的付出，那你会有所收获吗？你处处为那人着想，担心这个，担心那个的，他会领情吗？还是他只会利用你的这份真心诚意来得到他所要的目的？有时真的不要想太多... 就跟着直觉走好了... 最重要的，坚持你自己的立场，要学会保护自己，不要那么容易被三言两语而动摇... 我不想再做好人了，凡是还是要自私一点... 好累，好累啊... =(

2007-09-30T02:10:00.000+08:00

"You can't put it off any longer -- now is definitely the time to clear your desk of all that pesky paperwork or to write that email that should have been sent weeks ago. You'll feel eleven times better afterward. "

That's my horoscope reading for saturday... So accurate... Haha...

2007-09-28T13:02:00.000+08:00

Die die die... The one week recess week is coming to an end but i've not been very productive at all... Haha... Yet to start on my 1500 words CME essay, PBL slides and my stupid reflections... Haiz.. Never ending work...

Really going to stop drama teaching next year... Really need my weekends, be it to to rest or catch up with work and everyone else... Getting stressed up soon...

2007-09-20T08:48:00.000+08:00

Okie, maybe i over reacted then... But at that point, i couldn't really think of anything but all the things she had done and said... Thinking back, maybe what they're doing is right, preparing/bringing me into the real world but not in this manner... Haiz... But thank you to dear who called and those darlings...

Sometimes i just want to escape to a place whereby i can seek solace and forget about what is happening around me, be it family, responsibilities, school, work... Or maybe just somewhere with dear and close friends... Was thinking why am i so down on my luck and getting so emotionally unstable this past month and a friend told me this: perhaps it's because of my feng shui, cuz it's so near the sea and everyday the waves just come and go, just like the tears that will keep churning and rolling down... Haha... Sounds true yea... =p

2007-09-17T20:23:00.000+08:00

Hate it, the tears just can't stop flowing down... Tears of frustration, stress, disappointment, tiredness... I don't wanna stay at home anymore... Cried till i'm trembling now... Feeling numb... It's been so long that i'm crying till like that...

It's good to go home immediately and sit in front of the window looking at the magnificent scenery outside, you might just forget all unhappiness by just looking out... But no, i just don't want to go home, i just wanna run away, run away from all the stupid responsibilities that are added to me... What i'm an adult now, should help to share some burdens... I know, but i just don't like the way it is expected of me... So what if you have the money... You call the shots yea... It's not like i've not done anything...

School's another problem, assignments, projects, everything, they're endless... I'm not idling away you know... I might seem to be very free, everyday either hearing me going out with who, staying out, blah blah... Hello, i'm not having my fun okie... I know i won't be able to study at home, so out i stayed, studying till late... Instead of thinking wow, she's really trying to put in more effort, she chose to doubt me... Hate it when i'm being accused...

Drama's the next frustrating factor... I want my life back... The students are not helping me... The schedule's not helping me either... I really can't stand it anymore... Yea, who knows, i might need to see a psychologist sooner or later...

Damn it, just can't stop trembling and crying... Argh...

2007-09-13T22:07:00.000+08:00

Realised i forgot to update you people on my fines.. Haha... Remember the post that i talked about not having the cash card? It was a friday, 24th aug, paid $9.50 for it... And on the following monday, 27th, while driving to Esplanade for the rehearsal/performance, maybe my speed was really slightly too fast, received a call from my aunt one week later that i got a ticket for speeding... The speed limit was 7okm/h but my speed exceeded by 21-30km/h thus got a fine of $150 and 6 demerit points... =( Wrote an appeal letter, hopefully they'll give me another chance and cut down on the money and points... =x

Was asking my dad when will i have a full 24 points again cuz for the first year the maximum points given is only 12... So he said, i have to keep a clear record for the next one year counting from the day of the offence... Oh my goodness... So friends, if you got the chance to take my car, please bear with the speed i'll be going... It's going to be from 70-90km is what i'll be driving, 100km the most... Haha... Oh well...

It's thursday again... Tomorrow no school... Haha... Shall go to the gym, gotta start running... Then over to dear's place, he's going to show me the necklace, can't wait... After that jie jie is going to fetch di di to school... Lol...

2007-09-10T22:13:00.000+08:00

Ok, this peculiar game has been going on for some time and it kinda reached me. Since I've been tagged by Julia, my dear jie mei, I shall comply to try to complete this. Haha...

Instructions: Each player of this game starts off with TEN weird habits or little known things about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own TEN weird or little known facts about yourself as well as state this rules clearly. At the end, you must choose 6 people to tag and list their names.

Oh no, don't think i have ten wierd habits... Haha...

1. Mixed personality... Haha... I can stand my room being messy but once i were to start packing, i'll make sure it's going to get very neat and tidy... And i can't stand untidy stuff, eg, things getting out of place, drippings of sauces everywhere, even on public tables, i'll make sure i'll wipe them clean too... Lol...

2. When eatting, i like to arrange my food neatly side by side and slowly eat in sequence... Haha... Maybe that explains why i'm such a slow eater...

3. Whenever i get my dizzy spells, i'll tilt my head slightly towards the right the whole time and it helps! Haha...

4. I'll arrange everything in my bag neatly and make sure thay stay the same even when i'm walking... So if i were to open and see it messed up, i'll re-arrange it rightaway... Hee... And also arranging my stationery and books neatly on the table during studying as well as exam time... Stationery needed will be infront of the pencil case at the far end centre of table, water on the top left/right hand corner, books on the other side... Haha...

5. I always fall asleep with my blanket covering my legs no matter warm or cold... Haha... I can kick it away in the middle of the night but it's just a sense of security that my legs are covered at the point of time before i drift off to lala land...

6. I have a fetish for collar-bones!! Haha... Just like looking at them... =)

7. My 6th sense is quite strong but despite knowing this fact, i always choose to go against it and do some other stupid things... Always telling myself that i'll learn from the mistakes but oh well, history always repeats... =( Just like what the bf always say, i think too much at the wrong time...

8. I used to keep a diary of events during my poly life and i'll take them out occasionally to look at the things that i've recorded but has since threw them away while packing for house-moving a few weeks back... They're all past memories now...

Hmmm... Suppose there are still more wierd things about me that i can't remember for the time being... Haha... So for those who are reading and know about more wierd habits of mine feel free to tag them out... Lol... And now, the chosen 6 who will have to blog out their wierd habits are, Valencia, Shi Yun, Jin Xuan, Marcus (if you still read blogs... haha...), Zi Dan and Ying Jie... =)

Lots of things happened for the past week that i didn't blog... Moved house on the 3rd, thank you so much to Julia who came to help out... Managed to unpack everything in two days... Haha... Dear and Julia stayed over on tues, preparing for Shi Yun's big day on the 5th... Everything turned out quite well actually... We had fun!! Haha... Didn't do our QnA but played Cluedo and Twister instead... Julia, Cher Hao, John, Dear and i were practically twisted in a big mess... Lol... Poor Shi Yun couldn't play due to some reason but she had fun spinning for the first few rounds... Ha... Please refer to Julia's blog for the photos... Hee... Bdae girl and bf left around 2 plus so left the four of us... Didn't really sleep so after driving CH to camp the next day, the three of us practically slept like pigs after reaching home around 9... Only woke around 5 plus... Haha...

No internet, so couldn't do my e-learning stuff until sunday... Dead... Went over to dear's place and bi men to bia till took mc today... Kept having headaches and dizzy spells... Doc said it's a combination between migraine and tension headaches... Ooo... Haha...

My darling is a pig... Haha... Com, sleep, eat... =p

*wo shi bei dong de*

2007-08-29T21:53:00.000+08:00

Counting down to house-moving day but still haven't finish packing... Haha... Can't wait to move there though... First event after moving will be Shi Yun's 21st bbq... Stress... Lol... Must quickly unpack my stuff for the first two days, then it'll be the big day le...

Just nice it's E-Learning week too, no school for me but lots of things to be completed during the week... Sianz... I feel so dead, feel so lost for the chinese lessons... Tried to study, whenever i find that i've understood the theories, during tutorials i'll become very lost...=(

Stress...

2007-08-24T19:11:00.000+08:00

Was so angry with myself this morning... Took out the cashcard from the car yesterday, wanting to top up but not enough money so left it in the wallet... Happily drove to school today, went past the ERP gantry and to my horror, only remembered about the absence of the card when i heard the beep from the machine... Soon i'm going to receive the letter stating that vehicle number XXX didn't insert the cashcard on which day, date and what time and thus had to pay an extra $10... Blah blah blah... Was still cursing at myself when i looked up into the sky and saw the arc of a rainbow... It was so beautiful... Immediately forgot about the cashcard thingy and started the rainbow-high thing in the car.. Haha... How lucky can my day get... =)

*somewhere over the rainbow way up high*

2007-08-20T21:05:00.000+08:00

Whatever is meant to be, will be... Haha...

I was offered the sale of two tickets for the Fireworks Festival thingy last friday night, messaged dear and asked if he wanna go... Thought about the tons of people who will be there but at the thought of being able to meet up with her, i don't mind going... Who knows he said i go if i want to, he's going home... Dotz yea... Haha... So i thanked her for the offer and told her to sell it away instead, i'll just nuah at home and read my books... Later in the evening sis called, saying she has two tickets for the Fireworks thingy and if i wanna go... Lol... Mum was saying she wants, so off i went with her, sis and company... Hahaha... After one big round, there i was, sitting at the blue sector, looking up at the night sky, waiting for the 15 min of magnificiently designed fireworks... It was not too bad, some were quite normal but a few were really beautiful...

The nightmare came when the show ended... There were 27000 people seated, not counting those who were standing at the bridge area... We had to squeeze our way out of the seating area and all the way to Marina Square... It was horrible... Was thinking how we're supposed to go home... Can you imagine the congestion in the trains and buses... =x Luckily dad's willing to come fetch us back... Hee... But before that sis suggested me driving the car home cuz she'll be going out with her friends but withdrew the idea after strong objections from mum... Haha... Oh well...

2007-08-13T22:18:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... Second week of school, still getting used to life there as well as coping with lectures and tutorials and not to forget the assignments... Everything seems to be piling up... Don't like to access the BB everyday but oh well, you just have to... Haha... Mondays and Tuesdays are the most tiring, 0830 lesson, gotta sleep and wake up early... Lol... The worst thing so far is to stand all the way from Eunos to Boon Lay... Horrible, can't sleep... Haha... I suppose after moving to Bayshore it'll be worse... Haha...

Dear's production finally ended... Can concentrate on studies and have more rest already... Or isit more time for gaming? Haha... Next project for me will be helping to plan Shi Yun's 21st bdae party... Everyone having different timings... Stress... Lol...

*i wanna hold your hand*

2007-08-03T18:29:00.000+08:00

I love you Valencia Thng Su Ying!!!! Hee... =)

(ps: Dear, don't get jealous yea... You know i love you more... Haha... =p)

Met up with Val yesterday supposedly for a girls day out but Joseph came along too cuz he had some half day in camp... It's been so long since i last saw him... It was great having him around... =) Next stop was Bugis where we met up with Xiang Ling together to go watch Toy Factory's production, "Big Fool Lee".

Just saw my timetable, so happy, mine is a four day week... Monday to Thursday... Yea!! Bought a text book, $45.30, more to come... Ha... School's going to start on Monday le... Excited? I don't know...

Went back to school today to settle the cab claims... Cuz it was rejected by the principal due to the amount, some is $10+ some $30+ so got called down to try applying again... But since now i'm no longer with the school, can't claim anymore... So in the end, still have to go by the "ask colleague claim under his name then pass me the money" method... Dotz.. That was what i suggested right from the beginning... Whatever...

Suddenly miss all my close friends... I wanna meet up with you guys soon!!! =)

2007-07-31T13:55:00.000+08:00

Was on an emotion roller coaster ride yesterday... One minute i was up and before you knew it, down i go again... Met Pet in the morning to go stationery shopping... So happy... Just kept on buying all the coloured pens like nobody's business... Going to make our notes look so colourful... Lol... Had a long lunch at ljs, didn't know we could talk so much... Oh well, teachers-to-be... Haha... Then went down to Drama Centre to pass dear the 20 mandarin oranges that i helped to buy for the BFL... Next stop Robinson Rd, Coporate Office to exchange for the NTUC vouchers as well as the Draco box, whatever it is used for... Haha... Was very emo throughout the journey... Cannot control... =( Sis came to pick me up after that... Off to Parkway we went... Felt good cuz we're just chatting away, laughing at stuffs... I don't think we've done that before... Was so so so happy... Stayed over at my new house last night... Can't wait to move in... Hee... Am planning for some stay over already... Haha... =)

2007-07-30T09:17:00.000+08:00

Emo, emo, emo... Not good... Ha...

Went for orientation, got to know my GESL module group mates... Fun bunch of people... =)

2007-07-24T15:00:00.000+08:00

240707, the last day of my contract teaching in OEPS and i think it's going to be the last time i'll be blogging from the school com (provided i got posted back here for practicum)... Haha... Time really flies, thinking back, on this day one year ago, i was at town area having the Teachers' Prepatory Program and now, i'll be heading for NIE's orientation tomorrow... Was so looking forward to this day since i got my letter somewhere in april/may... But as the day arrived, it's kinda wierd... Everyone is like wishing you all the best, enjoy studying while we can... Eventhough i was so looking forward to this day but somehow still she bu de... One whole year... Spent sometime being santa claus, giving prezzies and chocolates to my students and colleagues...

The colleague that took over me for the past month asked if i wanna go in and bid them goodbye... Didn't really thought of that so quickly went to the bookshop to grab some stickers for the P1 and P2 and some pens for the P5 and P6... Created some commotion whenever i went into the classes... Haha... Didn't have class for P6 so met them after school at the canteen... It was so sweet of my colleague to take some time out from his lesson to let my P2 and P5 to make cards for me... One P5 girl even cried... Orh...

Today marks the end of my contract life but tomorrow will be the start of my NIE journey... I wanna wish that i'll really focus in studying, get good grades and hopefully can cross-over to the BA course... All the best to Elissa, Wan Ting, Perpetua and of course my dear Valencia, in the next 1 - 4 years in NIE... =)

*I'll try my very best to organise my time so that i'll have time for fun, work, drama and productions and not let my love ones worry*

2007-07-19T01:13:00.001+08:00

Busy busy busy... Got myself involved in TC's annual production Army Daze this whole week... Will be helping out with sound cuz dy will have to go down for Big Fool Lee... Currently waiting for the music file to be sent over... Tired... Lol... Had been sleeping around 1 plus, 2 plus these few days... Luckily school isn't so busy now... Ended my relief of a P1 class on wed... Will be going for NIE registration on thursday then down to SP... School's celebrating Racial Harmony Day on friday, will be wearing my penjabi costume... Lol... Wonder what will i be doing then, relief or zuo boing... Haha... Will have to help dear with more paper cutting then... 30 tins of newspaper cuttings... Crazy yea... Haha...

2007-07-09T21:50:00.000+08:00

Attended mei hui's wedding yesterday... It was so sweet... They did a cartoon video clip of how they met, fell in love, 5 years relationship, how the guy proposed, and all the photos... Just so orh... =) Pretty bride and handsome groom... 祝你们白头偕老，永结同心! =)

I'll be taking over her lesson for this whole week... Busy busy once again... But something bad happened to me again... My voice abandoned me once again... =( Coughing non-stop, thus loosing my voice... It's getting so hoarse and eew... Haha...

Beng and daiyan will be busy with Project Chiaruscuro thus won't be able to go for the tech and rehearsals for HIHS... Left with me to help settle them but will be in school and the only day i can will be on friday, which is the actual day of performance already... Afraid that i won't be able to perform the job well... =x *keeping fingers crossed*

Had our first script writing lesson with yufen jie on sunday... It was quite fun, not like those dry, theory based workshops... Hee... We were first introduced to the elements of drama and the two main concept of it... Did some group discussion on the latest news and did a still art presentation... Then we were told to recall one incident which left us a strong impression and one by one we had to share with everyone else and the process will be filmed... It was quite an emo 30 min or so... Homework for the week is to work in pairs and come up with a short story whereby we will then have to divide them into scenes and write a short script... Stress...

Counting down to the 24th of july... Hee...

2007-07-04T20:30:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling so bored... Blogging at his place now... Lazy boy happily sleeping and me nothing to do... Managed to do some of my lesson plan but didn't complete cuz no mood anymore... Haha... Was searching for nice blog skins but none so far has caught my eyes, still prefer the current one... Hee... I'm already getting into the study-holiday mood already, not good... Haha...

Val came to the stadium yesterday afternoon... Had a great time talking to her and reminising the past... Lol, sounds like we're some old ladies... We'll meet up very soon again yea... =)

I think it's going to be very soon that i'll be shifting to my new place... Almost 90% done already... Dread moving actually, gotta start packing my stuffs... So so so so so lazy... =(

2007-07-02T10:35:00.000+08:00

Met up with Weiyi and Julia at Vivo yesterday... It had been years since i last saw him... Ha... Dinner at Superdog and Ben & Jerry's for dessert... Haha... Had a nice catch up session at the roof area... Think i talked too much, was losing my voice towards the end... Lol...

Sis went for an overseas trip, listed down a whole list of things to be done while she's away... Stress... Haha... Finally did my research on part time maid, shall go print them out in school tmr... =) To think i could stay at home to do my lesson plan today but had to go down new house to oversee the deliveries and renovation this afternoon... Darl was right, surely something will crop up and i won't be able to complete it again... Haiz... Zi zhao de... =x

Finally arranged his timetable and sent a copy to me... Not too bad, time for lessons and more time for play... Haha... Am supposed to be his "secretary", taking note of his lessons and giving him wake up calls... Lazy boy... Haha...

Getting dark due to the constant absorption of the sun's rays... Haha... Been bringing the students out for competition since last wed... Don't like to be so tanned, especially the face... Lol... Oh yea, my school came in 2nd for the National Chinese Play Competition! =) Congratulations!!